You will pine for him who will chase after her who will pursue him who will fixate on her who will lust for him who will ache for her who will wait for him who will go back to her who will miss him who will who who who who who And on and on and on.
One day it will stop. It has to. It must. One day. Someday.
You might as well work while you're waiting. You might as well focus on all those other goals while you wait for your dearest hope to arrive. With every moment, you build another path, and who knows which one your future will travel down?
You want to avoid it all, but you must realize: your indecision is an action. It is a decision itself. The real question is, are you stuck or are you waiting?
Unconscious and sleeping, or dreaming of the future?
When you realize that no one is watching your actions that closely, that no one is invested in your decisions, that no one really cares what you do, you will have two choices: Absolute despair or absolute freedom.